youmeltmyhearttostone

tell me. why must u do this to me?
tell me. what m i suppose to believe now
tell me. when i gave up all hopes
tell me. how shd i face you?
tell me. who had taken the love for u away?
tell me. where did it go?

tell you.
i dont know why. your words, i have one word to describe... OUCH. each and every word that u say u didnt mean to say.
tell you.
its like your words are never fix. they can be changing constantly.
tell you.
not that im over-reacting. i really had the thought that we wld end looking at what we went through. when u put yr heart into something. and someone came along with their words and crush it. how wld u feel? especially when that someone is so dear. whats more, you arent even aware of how i would actually feel.
tell you.
in that two days. it hurt so bad. the feelings for you, i made them disappear. i know its selfish. but i didnt want to be hurt anymore. and i can do just that. if its ever so painful again.
tell you.
YOU
tell you.
the love is there. but its not showing. i know. because, even when i read that note from you, i know i felt smth. smth deep inside me is telling me to just run out of the hse and to the bus stop to look for u. but...i didnt know how to react. half of me actually feels smth. while the other half, nothing at all. the feelings got lost in all the quarrels and disagreements and i cant seem to find them. thats why there wasnt much reaction after reading. but i was glad that u did smth for me. like that msg in the morn. it did bring a smile on my face. u know u will. plus that note. i wld be in tears. but i ran out of them

for 3 days straight.
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