you suck.
you always make me regret my actions.
regret wanting to be with you. regret loving you
you can't treat me well and yet you're holding on to me.
and when i ask you to treat me better, you said you will. but your actions always show otherwise.

you can dinner with your friends, you can have fun with them after work.
but you cannot come down to find me, come down to check to see if i'm okay.
the least you could do was message me.
but YOU WERE HAVING TOO MUCH FUN, that you forgot about me.
no message, i still have to message you to ask you why you didn't reply.
your reason? i don't want to quarrel.
bullshit i say.
you ask me not to go like other guy's status not to comment and talk to them
and yet you yourself you do it like nobody's business.
because to you, you got something else new in your life, i get shoved into the corner.
that's how bad you're treating me.

somebody quit universal studios and they needed to find a replacement.
i told you i'm sick and i expected you to come look after me.
you chose universal studio. not me.
tell me how in the world is this fair!? it's not even your shift. your shift is on monday, tuesday and friday. you had the choice to choose not to work. they can freaking find a replacement themselves and it's not your responsibility to go cover for them for wednesday and thursday.
but who you want me to find to come take care of me?!!?!? i can't call any other person to do so!?
you want to be my boyfriend, you have to show responsibility towards me.
the least you could do was ask me before accepting the extra shift, BUT NO. having new friends and hanging out with them is way more important than me. CHERYL WHO!?! she sick so!?!?!?! is that how you gonna treat your love one when they are down and weak!?


you're gonna be away for 4months or longer in a few weeks. you told me you felt selfish towards me cos you know i would want someone to be there but you couldn't. but i told you, for us, for you, i was willing to give it a try. and you know how hard for me it is to accept it. but i'm willing. and when i asked you to choose whether you can treat me nicer or at least treat me properly and not mistreat me OR you rather just be single and enjoy whatever you wanna do. you freaking tell me YOU DON'T KNOW. seriously. that answer is the most selfish thing you could ever do. there's nowhere nearer to hell than in between and leaving me hanging. my demands are not difficult. you're not even away yet but the last thing that you're doing now is being there for me. people don't treat each other in a relationship like shit, they make each other feel special. you make me feel like i'm nothing at all to you, just crap.


i thought you already understood after that long talk yesterday but from how you are messaging. you still think you're right in doing all that to me. you still freaking don't put yourself in my shoes to see how terrible you've been treating me. i'm a person, with feelings. if you haven't thought of that yet. i'm telling you now and again. Anyone with feelings, would not want to be treated like that. you cannot always do things that neglect how others would feel, especially those around you. and those that you say you care for. People can have a time of their life hanging out with you, but when they come to know the real you, nobody is gonna like the treatment, one by one they will definitely leave you. 


If you can't appreciate the good things that you have now,
i'm telling you theres no better time to realise your own folly than now.
because once gone, you can't get it back. only regrets.